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Post by vegasjames on Dec 24, 2022 2:40:10 GMT -5
vegasjames I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. It was a difficult relationship it sounds like, but he was still your father and somewhere there was love. Prayers for you and your family. It would have been nice if we got along better because I always felt we could accomplish so much working together. My father was an inventor as was my great grandfather. I have a lot of inventions on paper and working on some, but some of them I know the concepts, but they involve electronics that is out of m realm but my dad was like an electronics genius. Many of his inventions were such massive leaps in technology. For example, when I was a teenager eh developed a computer link that allowed computers to link up to 5 miles, and transmit information 10 times faster. At that time computers could only be linked I think it was 100 feet. He also designed a table top computer hard disc reader. At the time the hard disc readers would fill a house, were not very accurate, only read the very outer edge and took 3 minutes to complete. His table top model read the entire surface down to 16 millionth of an inch in 30 seconds. The last inventions he was working on was a super computer that could be run at any speed you wish to run it at. A thousands times faster than today's computer, a million times faster or whatever. Just depended on how far you wished to expand the system, which eliminated the CPU altogether. And his other invention he was playing with was a DNA reader that can read a person's entire genetic sequence in less than a minute. That one scared me because there was so much risk of abuse. Still, his ideas were so far advanced. Some of my inventions are the same, such as I am getting ready to run a test on making large low pressure diamonds to use for computer chips, which can be formed in a very short period of time. And I have an idea for making a jet engine that would have more thrust than a rocket engine, but does not burn any fuel. These concepts are pretty simple, and the technology already exists, but just needs to be reapplied for these purposes. The diamond project, I am just doing a poor man's version at the moment just to prove the principle. This should produce diamond, but not as large or as pure as I would like. The equipment I need for that is way out of my budget, and it will require some modification that is going to require electrical knowledge to modify. The jet engine will also require some electrical knowledge, which circuitry is way out of my realm, which is where it would have been really cool to work with my father on some of my projects like this. When I was a kid we did often work on projects together, which was a lot of fun. And I always got labware and lab equipment from him for birthdays and Christmas because I loved playing around with the stuff seeing what I could come up. He even picked up an atomic absorption spectrometer for me that the State lab was getting rid of, but that was around the time we had our first big falling out where we did not speak for about 22 years so I did not pick it up. Would have loved to have that piece of equipment though. Most of my invention ideas are ones that are more fitting to my areas of expertise, but again I do have a lot that I would have loved to have had his help not only because he would know how to do the electronics, but also because I know he would not steal my ideas. There was another area we were a lot alike. Neither of us like marketing at all, and we are not money oriented. Our fun is in the inventing itself. I mean, I would love to have a massive lab where I could just lock out the world and work on inventions. That was another thing my dad and I had in common. He would go down in the basement a lot when I was younger and just spend hours and hours working on his projects. Unfortunately, he married a lady when I was about 3 years old that the best way I can describe her is that if true evil exists, that was her. I know 5 people who wanted to commit suicide because of her. She seemed to get some perverse joy out of trying to destroy people's lives, and needless to say we did not get along. And I was always trying to protect the other kids from her because she had control over them since they lived up there, but I did not. So, if she decided to play her threatening games I could just leave and go back to Las Vegas. Therefore, she had no control over me and she resented that fact so bad. She even told an old girlfriend of mine in essence that she was doing what she could to get even with me. And she did that by driving a wedge between my father and I, but he played along with her games to keep her happy. That is why I finally gave up and walked away the first time. She finally passed away after around 50 years a marriage, and that is when I finally contacted him again and decided to work things out again. Lasted a few years, but got tired of his temper tantrums again and so once again left. Said if he wanted to truly apologize that we could talk things out, but as I told his girlfriend he will never apologize, and he never did.
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Post by rockjunquie on Dec 24, 2022 4:44:33 GMT -5
vegasjames I'm sorry, I misread your post and thought your brother passed away. My sleep cycle has been messed up and by 9 or so- I'm just exhausted. I'm sorry. I wasn't trying to be insensitive.
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Post by fernwood on Dec 24, 2022 4:55:28 GMT -5
vegasjames condolences for your loss. It can be hard, knowing that a loved one is not taking care of themselves.
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Post by fernwood on Dec 24, 2022 4:58:19 GMT -5
I found this forum while looking for info about a specific rock. Never thought that it would become a family type place for me. I appreciate all of the support and knowledge other here have shared with me. I hope I have been able to do the same for others.
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Post by RWA3006 on Dec 26, 2022 11:01:06 GMT -5
rockjunquie[/quote] But, I learned since that people who know they are dying will treat their loved ones really awfully. [/quote] I didn't know this was a thing. I'm glad you mentioned it because it helps me to understand why someone close to me behaved so horribly while he knew he was dying many years ago. It always bothered me that I couldn't think well of him since, but now I guess I understand that knowledge of one's impending end can bring out the worst in a person.
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Post by rockjunquie on Dec 26, 2022 19:05:26 GMT -5
But, I learned since that people who know they are dying will treat their loved ones really awfully. [/quote] I didn't know this was a thing. I'm glad you mentioned it because it helps me to understand why someone close to me behaved so horribly while he knew he was dying many years ago. It always bothered me that I couldn't think well of him since, but now I guess I understand that knowledge of one's impending end can bring out the worst in a person. [/quote][/div]
Randy, I was in therapy for awhile dealing with his suicide. My counselor said that often times, esp with suicide, people who know they are going to die will want to make it easier to say goodbye (leave) when they are on bad terms. It's much easier to leave someone you're mad at.
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Post by wampidytoo on Dec 26, 2022 19:07:36 GMT -5
Aw hell, y'all are a bunch of sniveling babies trying to be courteous to each other just like me some of the time. I have been on the receiving and giving end of the generosity on here and appreciated every bit of it. My luck ran high the one winter I spent in Arizona and met quite a few of the people on here. Being the know it all jack ass that I am I went around with a few but we always ended up getting past it (well except for one but who is counting). Maybe bragging a little but I have been a giver most of my life and still am. There have been other times but the covid kept me broke for a long time (OKOKOK that and the younger ladies but it still counts right) This year I made gifts for six kids and only one is related. The single mothers are really struggling now so there are a lot of ways to give and I enjoy it as much as they do. I give almost all of my artwork and some people actually like it. Making someone open mouthed and speechless is the greatest compliment I have ever gotten. Enough about me. I have been missing too much here and am quite worried about a few of the people that were mentioned above but I am afraid to ask why. I have had a tough time since Vietnam with loosing friends and family and I do not deal with it well. So I am going to back out of here hoping everyone is like I remember them from long ago. BTW thank you for the birthday wishes a short while ago. It isn't every year that 76 comes around and being lucky enough to be able to do everything I did at 50. Y'all take care and stay healthy. Jim
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Post by hummingbirdstones on Dec 26, 2022 19:19:22 GMT -5
Aw hell, y'all are a bunch of sniveling babies trying to be courteous to each other just like me some of the time. I have been on the receiving and giving end of the generosity on here and appreciated every bit of it. My luck ran high the one winter I spent in Arizona and met quite a few of the people on here. Being the know it all jack ass that I am I went around with a few but we always ended up getting past it (well except for one but who is counting). Maybe bragging a little but I have been a giver most of my life and still am. There have been other times but the covid kept me broke for a long time (OKOKOK that and the younger ladies but it still counts right) This year I made gifts for six kids and only one is related. The single mothers are really struggling now so there are a lot of ways to give and I enjoy it as much as they do. I give almost all of my artwork and some people actually like it. Making someone open mouthed and speechless is the greatest compliment I have ever gotten. Enough about me. I have been missing too much here and am quite worried about a few of the people that were mentioned above but I am afraid to ask why. I have had a tough time since Vietnam with loosing friends and family and I do not deal with it well. So I am going to back out of here hoping everyone is like I remember them from long ago. BTW thank you for the birthday wishes a short while ago. It isn't every year that 76 comes around and being lucky enough to be able to do everything I did at 50. Y'all take care and stay healthy. Jim We love you, too, Jim! Hope you had a Merry Christmas and have a great New Year! Please come around more often. You always make me smile; even if I'm being a crab ass.
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Post by Rockoonz on Dec 26, 2022 19:40:50 GMT -5
wampidytoo yeah, done the sniveling baby thing once or twice, interesting what having that art switch turned on in the brain can do in a lot of areas of intense emotional stuff, good and sometimes not so good. There's deeper stuff to say, but honestly I am pretty brain fatigued and afraid to say things that would certainly be taken differently than intended. vegasjames I really get the concept of confusion in grieving, had one or two leave us who probably didn't deserve my grief, but they got it anyway and still live on in my memories. December is a big one, have lost quite a few in this month, and I sometimes think I need that scientists workshop to disappear into when the days get short. rockjunquie my current job and fly on a wall like status with people in treatment and self help retreats is really opening my mind to a lot of concepts on trauma that I used to dismiss.
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Post by liveoak on Dec 28, 2022 7:50:33 GMT -5
My condolences vegasjames. I can't for the life of me think of any great soothing thing to say, except that I'm glad you have the outlet here, among friends. Patty
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